I felt the heat of the world closing in. She laid next to me while i close my eyes taking in the moment. It was autumn but i could believe it to be spring. With the humid air closing between us I feel my heart beat race. Something isnt right. It could be the best day of our lives but I feel the dying sun looking away. I feel her gaze burning into my skull, awaiting my response. I turn to see the glitter in her eyes glow at me with a faint smile. Im not ready... I turn away looking for anything to save me but im cornered. I feel the weight come beside me as I smell her breathe beneath me. Im not ready... In my head I scream "No not now!" but the words cant escape me. I feel my mind melt unable to think or comprehend anything as my lungs suffocate beneath the cage. Im not ready... Like a bolt shot through my body I shot up to tell her. "Sorry, I cant do this Squeak. The Squad aint what i need right now"